the last week or two, i’ve been battling with some personal demons and really letting myself get beat up. i wonder why we are our worst critics…some of the things i have been saying to myself would be considered heinous if said to anyone else. some people causing grief in my life have too much hold on me. i’ll allow myself to get buried under such a thick cloud that my failure becomes inevitable. only when i forgive myself can i truly forgive anyone else for the petty, foolish, senseless gestures. only when i truly move on will i find happiness or success or peace. there are too many balls i’m juggling and can’t wait for my sabbatical to begin as soon as grades go in on dec. 15th. at the moment, all i want to do is reflect, react and rejuvenate and process everything that has been happening for the past year.
Today I’m marinating over the concept of ‘being mindful’….i’m not mindful of the millions of things i do daily, the millions of thoughts i have while awake or nearly-awake, not to mention how unmindful i am of the millions of blessings floating into my life every day. so here’s to being mindful today and trying to inject positive affirmations in my thoughts and tasks.